Little Love Stories: Benjamin

We kept crossing paths.

Years ago I got a call from Benjamin. I was dating L. at the time, I was in Provo by my car and he happened to be walking on the sidewalk as I was standing in the boulevard. This phone call from Benjamin was unexpected for two reasons. First being he had ignored/ghosted me for around 2 years at this point, he unfriended me from facebook. Secondly I didn't think he still had my phone number especially after ghosting me. The phone call lasted for a little bit and it went surprisingly well. He congratulated me on graduating, and for the new job. He also wanted to explain why he had avoided me and wanted to apologize for it. Apparently this had been hanging over his head a bit. It was good to hear from him and to have a real apology.

Some things you have to know about Benjamin is that he and I liked each other when we were teenagers. It was actually kinda cute. I liked running into him as church youth activities. We'd laugh and slow dance with each other. Lost of flirting. Then he graduated from high school and I was a grade or two younger than him, which meant we lost contact with each other because life moves on. Summer 2015, I saw his sister and was reminded of him so I requested him on Facebook and we started talking a bit. It was good. It was that kindred spirits kind of feeling. A little later on in time I saw his brother at a young adult activity. Benjamin and I talked a bit more. We skyped for hours a couple of times. It looked like we could potentially get together and hangout, well that didn't happen. He made up excuses for not being able to get together and then ignored me and unfriended me on social media. ***This is what lead to the phone call.

Years later (maybe 2019) up in Salt Lake City I went to a house welcoming party/gathering at this girl named Mary's house. As I walked around the house seeing people and making new friends and acquaintances I ran into Benjamin there. That was also very unexpected. I hadn't thought about Benjamin anymore since that one phone call. Lots had happened. L and I dated fell in love and broke up. I felt a heartache I didn't know would hurt so bad. Then A. and I started to date at this point. I thought we could reconnect and be acquainted again. Turns out he didn't want to be friends and couldn't use his words to tell me. I believe I even asked him if he wanted to get together and hangout and voiced that if he didn't it was okay as well but to just tell me. Instead he blocked me on ALL social media even my business Instagram account that I didn't even know he knew about. I've never heard from him ever since then.

I hope he's doing well. I hope he's happy. I hope he's gotten better at communicating, at the very least being a little courteous and tell people that he's not interested rather than leaving people in the dust.